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i was thinking today that in a few weeks i won't be a teenager anymore. then i realised how i've lost three years of my life and i'll always have to live with the consequences of this. it makes me feel so uncomfortable and bitter, what's lost is lost forever
i start uni next week and i'm freaking out slightly. i know this is meant to be good for me but i also feel i'm committing to something (which with how i tend to look at it is a terrible thing) . i just want to be somewhere i would choose to live or dream of living in, not settling for somewhere less cos of my umm...problems...fuck, i don't know what to call it/them!
can you all do me favour? post a reply with how you've been recently (i know it's all on live journal) but a short message would ace too
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| swedish day |
[26 Jul 2005|07:09pm] |
this is dedicated to vinky cos i just realised alan partridge talked about a swedish day on one of his shows haha.
so i went to ikea today and got a new wardrobe, table and blue penguin statue. to eat i had a potato covered in sesame seeds. i also had swedish lingoberry juice, very nice. then we went to best buy and i got the shout out louds cd (international version) but i feel i've almost heard the songs too much now. i also got the soundtrack of their lives cd. all i need to complete the day is to watch some porn but we no longer have that channel on our tv...
p.s. i finally found the new(ish) turin brakes cd in another bestbuy on the way back
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| feeling pissed off, i choose who to take it out on |
[15 Jul 2005|10:03pm] |
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they protest at lifeless embryos being killed but kill thousands in selfish wars
they call their favourite sport football when they only use their feet for running in it
they have a good example of how to live to their north but ignore it and mock it
they look like pigs but still don't cover up their rolls
they have done loads to stop democracy in south america and around the world while they claim they are spreading it
they pay ridiculous prices for drugs they need to keep them alive and accept this
they are banned from drinking before they're 21 and don't do anything about it
they put rock and pop in the same section when they shouldn't be together
they have millions of bathrooms without baths in them
they just watch and endorse the apartheid in the holy land
they like how we speak but choose to have awful accents themselves
they say the word ''y'all'' when ''you'' would do fine
they have millions of religious fanatics among them who make the laws in some parts
they give $3bn for weapons to a country that stole people's land and continues to
they won't let you see the human body on tv but see nothing wrong with endless lies, indoctrination and violence
they chose a leader who is an idiot and can't speak his own language fluently
they don't know how to cook in their massive kitchens and eat shit instead, and loads of it
they have 4% of the people but use 25% of the energy
they go away on holiday and complain if it's not like their home
they talk about being so democratic but they can only choose between the centre-right and the far-right
they kill criminals depending on their ethnicity
they are the greediest land on the planet
they wonder why so many hate them
there's much more...
i'm sick of people saying it's just the leaders who are the problem. the people must be fuckwits to let it get like this.
and the good news: we might be moving home, but sssh it's a secret...
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| the trouble with dreams is they never come true |
[11 Jun 2005|12:04am] |
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-sorry i haven't posted for ages but i've had nothing interesting to say-
i've tried and i've failed. i've come a long way but there is so far still to go. i don't have the energy to go on any more.
words can't describe things any longer, they've got me nowhere. so it's now time for silence...
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[30 Apr 2005|06:01pm] |
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this semester is almost over. i found out this week that i've got into george mason university for the coming autumn. the thought of staying over here doesn't get me that excited but at least i'll 'have my foot in the door' as i keep hearing. and i can go to south america after a year or two on a study abroad programme. i wouldn't have been able to get in back home, but i've decided not to get all 'only in america.....' about this. though if someone had told me a year that i'd have got into uni this way i would have thought they were mad.
so today dad bought me some cds cos i haven't got any for ages and for getting that letter. i got:
the new sterophonics one
kaiser chiefs
stellastarr*
mooney suzuki
sigur ros (-)
i did loads of shopping on thursday and i tidied my room. my stuff doesn't really fit in there. i'm trying to create new spaces.
uncle martin (aka tarts, hahaha) is going to be the first of the family to visit us, he comes on thursday. he's been to nz, nepal, india, antigua, peru.... but never usa. we're going to take him to the local big supermarket. no, not the white house, just there. the idea was to use the pool but since the moment we got it the weather has been awful.
in spanish we did a video for class and the group all came over to my house. rebecca had unlimited energy as always. my plan to mess it up (as they got me to wake up to be there for 8) worked by accident when i talked over a scene i wasn't in. rebecca's mum thought i was cute; i, along with the whole class, was told.
mum has this idea for us to go to france when dad's there with work (late may and first few weeks of june) she said we could invite people from uk and rent a big place for a few weeks. harriet's asked some of her friends and they should be able to come. we could eat french food and meet old friends and have big parties. oooohhh, it would be so good!
if you got to the end of this, well done.
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| i'm still around |
[08 Apr 2005|05:49pm] |
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i've really got to find something to do this summer. i have a few ideas, i'm hoping one of them will work out.
the weather's getting a lot warmer. i got a tan the other day. but the pool's not ready yet.
i've been watching a lot of football recently to pass the time but it gets boring after a while. real madrid - barca on sunday, c'mon barca!
mum and dad have gone back to the uk for a family funeral, i wasn't allowed to go. harriet and i are left out here for a few days and we can't drive, yet.
you may have noticed this page looks different. i need to be inspired to make it look better.
this girl on aim likes me and she doesn't live the other side of the world.
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[20 Mar 2005|05:03pm] |
hi,
it's been a while since i've posted here cos of lent.
firstly, i went to see kings of leon. i met caleb and talked to him for about a minute and i met vagenius' singer. it was fun, shame i didn't talk with caleb for longer.
i went to italy for a week and stayed with my cousin. i'm far too well brought up to say what i think about him, seeing as he let me stay there. i had a whole drama with losing my bag, long story. it was really good to see another culture again. i stayed in ravenna, then bologna and then venice. in bologna i stayed in a smelly youth hostel which was out of the city (kinda annoying). i'd ran out of money (having to buy replacement clothes cos of the lost bag) by venice so i got to stay in a nice hotel my mum booked on the internet last-minute but dad's pissed off with me now about the cost.
after 27 years wales have won the grand slam! it's so good, yesterday was fantastic. one guy cried at the end and he hadn't even lived in wales like me (but we can still support them). dwayne peel was fantastic and rightly man of the match. moving across the atlantic hasn't affected mum's ability to find people anywhere from where she grew up. she found someone from st davids there! i can't say how great this all is so i won't try, just be happy for me. cymru am byth!
that's all, nick
(pictures available at - http://photobucket.com/albums/v644/sunshinin/ - password = yaha)
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| another update |
[13 Feb 2005|12:25pm] |
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hi, how are all of you? happy valentine's to you all for tomorrow.
good news, i got 'smile' by brian wilson for $12.99 cos they put the wrong sticker on it. i got 94% in a spanish test. i've only got one more hour of driving lessons left. six nations is going well: wales 2 out of 2, england nothing haha.
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| why here?! |
[17 Jan 2005|11:28am] |
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this is my first rant..... everyone always asks 'how is it where you are now?' i say it's ok to not sound too miserable. but really it is crap, we're three miles from the nearest small town. i wasn't always really happy in fairfax but i had friends, things to do, places to see. and now? virtually nothing 'cept a big garden. i was talking to harriet about it last night and she feels kind of the same. i asked her what i should do and she said just get on with it and have fun in the summer. she said not to hassle mum about it cos she only gets upset. i know we won't move as we've barely moved into this house, but there must be another way. i can't just wait, i'm missing out on so much. well, the more i type this i see there's no solution. everyone my age has gone off to college and the people at my college are ones who've messed up (like me, i know). this sort of place is ok for retirement but it drains younger people's spirits.
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[13 Jan 2005|01:33pm] |
i started community college, it's not that good. even the most positive people said it wouldn't be fun and i wouldn't meet people i'd like, but it's just to prepare for uni in the future.
dad's gone back home to sort out the guns. i'm so jealous, i'd love to see the old country again. he's got £60 of hmv vouchers (which were meant to be mine!) on him so he should bring back some good music. talking of dad, i'm getting him this t-shirt for his birthday. it's such a classic, i love that show.
i got Q mag for the first time since i've been here. it was strange cos it made me upset that i didn't know all these new bands like the babyshambles. i have got 6 of the top 11 albums though. no.1 was the streets, tut-tut. that's all.
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| back from canada |
[02 Jan 2005|03:56pm] |
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well, i've finally got round to making a live journal. i'll try to update it regularly but forgive me if it gets boring. so the news is...
the family got back from niagara and toronto yesterday, after 12 hours of tedious travelling. we saw the falls, and they were amazing, but the city around it is sooo tacky. then we went to toronto and on the first night i met up with raya. she was sweet but it didn't go that well cos i was tired and about as fun as cholera that night. god, shyness is a bad curse. we went to her friend's house and she had a really cool friend called dasha. next night we went to the cn tower and ate in the revolving restaurant (360), it has some incredible views of the city. on new year's eve we ate at this nice indian place and it reminded me of being back home. a few other things made me feel like that, the people were better dressed, less fake, and when you just heard a few words from them they all sound english.
sorry this site looks crap, i'm still figuring out how to design this. take care, nick
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